annnnyway - friday I went to the mall w/Carrie + we met Dave + Jeff there.. that was fun (: we walked aorund a lil and then went to daves + then decided to go to the carnival.. so we went for a little while - but it was gay and it was like 5 so there was no1 there... so we left andwent back to daves - whichh was the start of a very interesting night - daves dad and brother had gone out so we were along in the house - so of coursee dave and jeff get freakin plastered - but me and carrie played mommy for the night and took good care of them =) it wasnt that bad till daves dad came home and me + carrie were standing in his kitchen lkie - ummm right.
yesterday jackie came over. some shit went down friday night with her and i'm sworn to secrecy for life - though i'm not sure thats the best way to go about it - i cant and wont ever tell a single person. it's serious and i'm scared.. i dont think when something like this happens the best way to go about it is to pretend that it didnt happen. but thats what she wants + thats what i'm gona do.
me and brian made up =)
i'm think im kinda starting to like somebody that i probably shouldnt for a few reaons.. i dont knwo how he feels either.. and this brings me back again to my issue iwth not wanting to get too close to guys and all that stuff - but i think he'd be okay.. but for now we're just friends and that's good =) i still can't get mike 110% off my mind - he's a good kid and i'll love him foreber - i mean 2 yers is a long long time t obe with some1 in highschool - and i'll always care aboiut him more than any1 just because of everything we went to.. now i'm not saying that i'm still obsessed w/being wiht him and stuff because i'm not - i am FINE with out him.. totally fine - just deep down inside i wouldn't mind another chance with him. idk - we'll see.. me and jackie had along talk last night about how things work themselves out - like u'll meet someone - and 5 years later u could hate them, love them, be best friends, or go through something crazy with them - stuff you never woulda thought about the weird girl who sat next to u in 5th grade - or the girl u met in middle school.. its cool though.. how different people fall into place in ur life.. i dunno - gotta go though.. workin at 4 today then sleepin over kellys w/her + krizia..